June 12, 2008

 

Lord, my heart is aching. I do not understand why I have so much and the families here have so little. At one of the townships we visited today the lady in charge of the SpillClinic (which is an after school program for kids) was telling us about the community. She said families here were so poor that parents would often offer their children cigarettes & beer when they asked for food. She also said that the single apple & glass of milk given to the children at the clinic would often be their only meal of the day. Why did you give me so much?  These kids weren't only starving for food, the were starving for affection. The moment we stepped out of the van they came up to us & grabbed onto our hands and legs. Their little faces lit up when I simply gave them a high five. There were so many of them and only 15 of us! It was so hard to learn their names because there were so many; but I want to desperately to learn their names so they know they are important and important to God. Most of them spoke very little English but that didn't matter. Within a few minutes we were playing & making up games. They all wanted to be held and they all wanted to be hugged.  They were so beautiful and innocent. The reason they live like they do has nothing to do with them. Why do they live like they do? Do the parents have a choice? Why was I put in a place with no worries?

 

I have a family that overflows with love and affection and I have a father that has bent over backwards to make sure our needs were met. Thank you Lord for blessing me. How could anyone look at the heartache here and then look away? Don't let me do that. Keep the pictures in my mind. Don't ever let me take advantage of anything You have blessed me with; my house, my family, friends, church, food, clothes, school, safety, Lord EVERYTHING! Why do I have so much? Lord You have pulled the strings of my heart; now please make my time effective. It may be hard because of the language barrier, but please provide opportunities for me to share the gospel. Loving and playing with these kids is fun but it's not going to save their souls. Make them understand.

 

Draw them to You. Let them know You are the ultimate provider & the Father to the fatherless and that Your love is unconditional. We don't have to beg for Your affection and we don't have to worry about anything because You promise to provide for us. Lord, there is so much to be done here! Make me sensitive to Your call and Your plan for me. Make me willing, make me able. Please direct my life because I want to live it for You. I want to be a part of Your work. I want to see lives changed & people saved. Use me! Amen.

 

 

Micah